hi hello! im happy but in dire need of gray skinny jeans
btw, if the spice girls decide to perform in the philippines, im sure in hell i'll be watching! do you have any idea how cathartic singing "soooooo tell me what you want, what you really reallly want.." is?
basta! i most definitely wont dress up all 90s-ish, but you cant blame me for loving them, can you? they've pretty much dominated the first decade of my life!
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speaking of the first decade of my life, i cannot believe rico yan's dead!
he was my very first heart break. :(
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btw, where can i get gray skinnies for less than 1k. i mean, is that tooo much to wish for. gray DECENT skinny jeans, nothing too flashy, and definitely not tacky! arggghh.. there are gray ones from ghills, but there are stud bits there, and the pocket doesnt really impress me. arghhhh. should i get it? should i? should i?
whats wrong with me, ive got lots of clothes na! pero wont gray skinnies look just so chic!?!?!
and ive been lusting for that for a year now.
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happyhappyjoyjoyhappyhappy! :D
i miss pauline. :)
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he hello. im happy but in dire need of self-control.
in one week, ive purchased 600php worth of magazines. three back-issues of allure magazines, one back-issue of cosmo girl, and the current issues of marie claire. marie claire will from now on be my monthly gift to my mommy... :D and if i see the december issue of seventeen tomorrow, i will most likely be getting that too. i mean, for gift ideas, helloo!?!?? its an annual thing.
i've always been addicted to magazines. it all started with the very juvenile candy.. which is probably where i got all the vanity from. and magazines are where i without doubt got my sense of style from. (pretty much like everyone else).. oh yeah, and the insecurities that went with it.
btw, candymag wasnt so kiddy back then.
if geno's a vogue-person, im an allure.
what the hell is wrong with me? dont i have anything better to do??
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oh yeah, and have i announced that im officially a dean's lister. the pressure's heavy, but the work sure paid off! yehey!!! im the top 25th(ish) in my batch of more or less 400 students! not bad, huh? yippee!!
im getting happier everyday. i had the long due date with pao today, and im feeling so much better. on my health, relationships, yadayada. but as usual, im waiting for stress to kick in and get me working.
and this pretty much compensates for my vanity. i work waaayy better when i feel pretty. i practically get sick when i dont prep myself up in the morning! i actuallt did, and it took 2 days for me to get well. i even had to skip p.e.
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all will be well
....maski na may topak na talaga laptop ko.
merry christmas!
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home. im a loser.
saturday night 8.22 pm. both my younger sisters are out. one is in hs, and one is an anime freak. and myself, having much more real friends than they both do combined, being a havebeen partygirl kuno, absolutely fun-loving, no doubtedly nightlife-hogging, 100% freakishly annoyed with staying home, am home.
im home! :|
my social life is therefore dead. i havent touched alocohol for half a year now (tama ba?). i havent danced for a year now (tama ba?).
okay, fine, ang sinungaling ko. exag. pero its been so long. can someone please invite me out ng saturday night? im a teenager, you know.
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happyness
so what have i learned today?
i've learned that DUH! the environment has such a phenomenal impact on how we feel, but it's always up to us whether we'd rather make mukmok or actually make an effort to be happy.
everyone's got problems: love, family, academic... it matters to the eyes beholder. no one lives a perfect life. those who lead perfect perfect perfect lives get knocked up at 17. :D im happy everything just kiiiinda perfect, not perfect perfect.
and that i'm already 18. the 17 rules is therefore void.
haaaaayyy.
i'm happy.
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i've also learned that...
nothing, that's all i learned today.
...i loved you very much./yay! you're staying!/i miss you. you're near yet so far. wow! lalim ng pinaghugutan niyan!
/i love love love you. if you stop loving me, i wouldn't know what to do. :(/ikaw, i dont love you. oh well. sorry. try again next time. or not. ha. ha./thank you very much. i'll try not to be stiff ok? sorry, im not 'well-versed'. :*
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i've got this big problem with sincerity. it's like i give a wee bit too much effort in being sincere that its a wee bit almost unreal.
ugh.
talk about paranoid.
oh and yeah, im obsessed with my boyfriend.
it's almost christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tis the season to be jolly!!!!
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i'mmmm back (kinda)
dont keep your hopes up.
im going away pretty soon again.
hahaha. its not as if you care diba, pero lets just assume that you guys do.
anyway, ive got the best most legal excuse for being gone for such a long long long time. my laptop's been gobbled up by some deadly virus and i had to format the whole computer.
yup, more or less 5,000 of memories through pictures since 2003, all gone. the stupid highschool memories, the blog layouts, the love letters, the poems, the 60-page novelette, the diary entries, the millions-worth of fashion clippings, an ample amount of 2000-4000 songs, hundreds of good links, gone gone gone gone gone.
yes, i did cry like a baby about it. but let's look at the bright side shall we (even if it doesnt matter if i do since im miserable deep inside already):
1. photobucket is a lifesaver. around a couple thousands of pictures saved (the pretty ones)... no more bad pictures :D
2. the 300 pages of journal entries, i have it in hard copy, and besides reading about it just makes me feel so god damn stupid. like, OMFG WHAT THE FUCK WAS WRONG WITH ME!
3. the novelettes, short stories, and essays from the days i though id be a writer...yup, hard copy.
4. the memories with paolo, in my memory box.
5. college pics, steal from nica's, mil's, marielle's multiply.
6. fashion clippings? you cant really take taste away from anyone you know.
see, it isnt that bad. all my whining to paolo and the stomping, crying, screaming, yanking that went with it...my bad.
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but see, im going to rereformat my laptop.
that will be followed by the ff:
1. reinstallation of ms office.
2. avg
3. mozilla firfox
4. ym!
5. photoshop
6. printers
7. font fonts fonts
work work work.
we'll be back to work soon.
ughhh. :(
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i love you.
im hurting right now.
cry cry.
i just want to sleep.
i wish i had sleeping pills now, strong ones.
im hurting talaga ng sobra. :(
puchang law yan.
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i love this pic
i look like a mannequin!
ahihihi.
*pout*
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sad
i'll be losing soon. everyone.
i am now trying to get used to it. ugh. it sucks, to be honest. but it's something some people are able live with, so i guess i shouldn't be to bothered with it. so soon.
im so emo. maybe today lang. hopefully.
im so high maintenance.
i am responsible for my own happiness. why would i choose to be sad if i can be happy. ive got tons of reason why i should be happy and a petty few excuses to be sad.
get over it.
:*
i feel so much better.
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cancer
my dad is talking with his painter at this very moment. he's (the painter) is saying that only rich people get cancer. maybe its in the expensive food they eat. good point. no one in the squatter's area gets cancer. they all die from, tubercolosis, starvation, hmm, whatever. oh yeah, and murder.
dad: "cancer yata dumidikit sa pera e"
painter: laughs. "oo yata e."
dad: "ganto nalang, bigay ko lahat ng pera ko sayo"
painter: "tas ano? ako magkakacancer." laughs again. poor people keeps on laughing too.
dad: "sabi siguro niya (referring to papa lord almight), 'ah may pera ka ah! bigyan kaya kita ng matinding sakit? may pangpagamot ka naman e'."
ughhh this is supposed to be ironically amusing. how did it end up sounding so cynical. snort.
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my guy bestfriend, bry, is taking psych in PUP. AND I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM IN OUR SIX MONTHS OR SO OF NOT TALKING, BUT HE'S TURNED INTO THIS TO THE EXTREMES PHILANTROPIST!
i can very much remember him saying na gusto niya yumaman para makasama ang mga pilay sa birthday niya!
he also said na ibang saya ung nararamdaman nia pag nakikita nia sila kumakain ng nakangiti. "kapuspalad" sila, pero kumakain sila ng nakangiti.
more so, i asked him if this is the happiest he'e ever been in his life and he replies: "mas sasaya ako kung masasama ko ang mga kabarkada ko sa gantong pamumuhay."
WTF!
WHOTHEFUCKISTHISIDIOT!?!??!?! MY BESTFRIEND USED TO BE JUST AS SELFISH AS I AM! ANUNG PINAKAIN NG COURSE MO SAYO! SINOKABA!?!?!?!! GIVE ME BACK MY TAONG-KALYE BASHING BESTFRIEND, THE ONE WHO'D LAUGH IF I HOMELESS MAN GETS RUN OVER BY A TRUCK OR VAN IN AURORA BOULEVARD!!! REMEMBER HIM?
oh well, he is happy. i know that im a miserable person in the outside but am all hearts in the inside, but i cant beat him now, can i? i mean i cant even step in the vicinity of a palengke without cringing! i can not believe he's nicer than i am now.
shooot. i got him for a bestfriend because its fun to have someone as stone-hearted as i am to be with. someone who's all hearts in the inside too. and he's way more frank than i am.
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non-makeup(osity)
happy all saint's day.
hmmmmm... i dont think nov.1 needs an amicable greeting of the sorts.
anyway.
oh yeah, i was about to go on about how i dont look thaaaattt bad wihtout makeup. yesterday, i actually went out without makeup, a blue oversized guy's shirt, and two sizes too large PE shorts. paolo, on the other hand is in his casual gwapo outfit, jeans-shirt-chucks combo.
im so scared of bumping into people, really. especially old school mates. i think i lived my life showing off for them. sort of like a snotty taunt: "nananananah, im no longer mousy. YOU ARE! NANANANANAH!" sort of way.
sometimes, i actually do think that i maaay look better without makeup. i mean with all the beauty measures i do everyday (cleans, tone, moisturize AND MORE), i deserve it. i think. and i no longer think that writing about stuff is jinxing it. the law of attraction works so much better than any misfortune-inspired theories.
i actually shocked myself when i looked at my non-makeup,newly-washed face in the mirror. "that's new".
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bah! who am i kidding! ofcourse i look better with makeup on. duh!
im just saying, its not as bad as i expected. :)
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