i havent written anything for a long time because i was thinking that my ability to write have sunk way low.... like in depths kind of low. my words are repeating, my rhythm is no longer poetic, there is no artistry of any sorts... in other words, these are all emotions jumbled up, written down, expressed in the manner of someone attempting to be a writer.
this blog is my only outlet of the life-long "dream" i've vacated a year and half a sem ago.
lets be emo, shall we.
in terms of literary fashion, i am becoming really useless. untasteful. the only way i get any crowd to read this blog is to expose the dark yet abnormally petty secrets ive been hiding carefully the past few years of my life. the know hows, the insecurities. this blog should be censored even, but it isnt. i find myself too shockingly, tactlessly honest... i'll hate myself for this soon. but, to be fair, having no secrets about yourself is like relieving yourself from some weird itch-like burden. im personally a little less stressed now. "know yourself and be effing honest!"
and still no one reads this but me. undiluted vanity. my narcicist self. i read my blog and im so proud of myself... but whenever i look back at the past entries, i just want to cut my fingers off to remain me from blogging.
i hate paolo because he never reads this. :(
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guess what?!?!?!?
guess guess guess... not in a million years, you wont figure out.
well, here we go:
i can feel kindness in my system.
shocking.
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iloveyou.com
.. im not really lacking anyone in my 18 roses, but seriously, ive had more heart to hearts with my driver than with most of my cousins. seriously, he deserves a spot. he's my "furniture character" (look it up in the web if you must, losers)... he's a useless shit and all, but he gets me to places! i mean, thats more worth than any of these "cousins".
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our guys are the best. they may be gayly, severely stupid, irrationally blind, insensitive, not so chilvaric and downright immature at times, but they can be the sweetest things on the planet. story not to be told, as i still do not have the writing flare as of the moment.
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yadayadayadayadayada
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i cant wait to have my hair trimmed. i miss ate celi. :(
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I FOUND THE MOST USELESS PAGE IN THE INTERNET EVER! ID HAVE THOUGHT THIS WOULD BE ALL USEFUL AND SHIT, BUT WHAT THE!??!?!
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i can not write.
i forgot how to.
see you guys soon, when i get my magic back.
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who here likes 1997? 1996? 199anything?
nobody likes the '90s!
the fashion sucks and so does the parties. stop wondering why your childhoods are all bores!
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im not improving at all.
i need something. what was that that homer simpson got in the movie with the boob lady? ...something about redemption and all..
epiphany!
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i can just die now.
bitches. got this from chuvaness.
i really can die now.
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im so vain
so vain, i've got to stop. im a really selfish and extremely spoiled rotten brat. the thing is, i wasnt THIS spoiled before. you can actually call me kind of .... well, fine, i was spoiled back then too.
and yet, i can still remember telling my mom when i was in grade 3 "wag na tau bumili ng damit. its a waste of money." uh-huh uh-huh.. exact words! my mom still remembers it very well. she keeps it very safe in her heart, those words.. i mean, that may be the only time in history that she'll ever get to hear it.
i love allure magazine, i do i do.
but please, stop slapping stuff on your face! stop buying clothes, since you barely get to wear them. hellloooo, you have a uniform for goodness sake.
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its 6.30 in the am, and ive been awake since 5.30. paolo wont wake up properly for me, and im stuck with myself. no good conversation can come from that, i know.
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ive got a singaw, whatever you call it in english ive forgotten. mouth ulcer ata.. ewan. i might've just made that up.
well, anyway, its soo "annoying". i can feel it burrowing through my cheeks.
im supposed to be over this singaw stage, goddamnit! im so pissed with feelings "GAD DAM IT NGA SABE E!" for goodness sake, ive had these on for more than 5 years already.
teta's having hers removed this sep. lucky lucky girl. :( fine! im happy for you. i may be churning inside, and nourishing a new set of rage, anger, jealousy and resentement, but yes, deary, i am happy for you.
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today today
because there are no classes today due "egay" (the typhoon), i have finally perfected the smokey eyes ive always wanted!!
sooo hot! ive used loreal, bodyshop, estee lauder and gogo eyeshadows, mac shimmer powder thingy, maybelline unstoppable mascara AND A SECRET WEAPON!!!
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we're having pizza for dinner!! yiheee!!!
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originally, i planned to be with paolo today. :( but the rain was just too bad for him. :( :( :( sad sad sad sad sad. :(
sooooo, i just went to the local jologz smellypeople-infested mall and picked up a few stuff and small box of gonuts cupcakes for me and my sisters. with candles and all!! yippee!
im betting jul and jas would have the same pics on their blogs.
anywwaayyy, the thing is, this day is pointless.
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aside from being pointless, this day is extremely unproductive. aside from the pretty eyemakeup and the new stuff, all of which i dont necessarily need, there has been no sensible accomplishments or whatsoever ive achieved today.
mean, cynical, and bitchy is still unfashionable.
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makeup wish list
i know ive still got lots and lots of em... but well, the thing is, you have to find the PERFECT product at the best price at that!
1. loreal infallible foundation in W6(Sun Beige) - 16 hour freshly applied looking foundation, smudge-free, transfer-free, its almost like the perfect product ever. (kind of affordable, but not available in the philippines)
1.5. loreal true match foundation in W6(Sun Beige) - if i cant have infallible, i still want to have the best shade for me.(affordable, but not available in the philippines)
2. avon waterproof washfree mascara - waterproof but really easy to wash. top1 in top10 best mascaras review by i-village. (affordable, duh, its avon! but ive no idea where to get it. please dont leave suggestions!)
3. lancome waterproof hypnose mascara - they all swore to this. they say its PERFECT (unaffordable)
4. maybelline unstoppable mascara- easy wash off, 100% smudgeproof not too perfect but its affordable AND available!
5. maybelline pure foundation - cant find the perfect shade, but they say its good. and its affordable. and available anywhere!
6. maybelline Superstay™ Silky Foundation (in sandy beige)- sounds good. but its a new product, so its probably unavailable in the ph.
7. loreal Idéal Balance Stick Concealer For Combination Skin (in medium) - heard so many good things about it! (afforable?)
8. smashbox eyeshadows - they have the best packaging and sooo many wearable shades! (unaffordable)
9. lancome eyeshadows - best consistency, just as much as shu uemura. but the difference is, less color.. you know me when it comes to color.. im just such a freak.
10. clinique moisturizers - id prefer moisturizers with less ingredients like celeteque, buut i do need the moisture!
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hatelovehatelovehatelove
isnt this just too hot for words?
ive always HONESTLY liked posh. 100%. ive like her since she was a spice girl and i was a gusgusin. likey likey likey... even if the rest of the fashion world thinks she's shit and all. HER HAIR'S HOT! i dont know how she does it. and so is her body. hellllooo??? what is wrong with you people!???!!!
well, she can get pretty tiring at sometimes too.. but who cares. i love her.
oh, and yeah.. david beckham is just zeeexxxy!
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now, wanna know who i hate? teri hatcher.
i know she looks harmless, but imagine a 50year old had like that talkig like she's 16. ughhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! wtf! its so grosss.. and she gets hot guys like mike delfino to kiss her and all. pacute!!
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THIS IS BRITNEY SPEARS for allure magazine:
i super like the makeup. just exactly what i want. clean smokey. ...
btw, just in case you're all very unfashionable. being mean is soooo last season.
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i finally found something i can barely make work. school shoes.
its so sad. i know i love them, but i bet i would've loved them better if bought them in maroon.. but oh well, i am planning to wear it to school. :( they just soo much looks like school shoes. :(
i can feel fashion draining away.......
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as usual. i am wasting my time online.
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current favorites
favorites always change. and as of august 15 2007, 11:05 in the evening, these are the noteworthy faves i may want to look back on.
common faves: color: white book: sloppy firsts by megan mccafferty, mirror mirror by gregpry maguire subject: literature, adprac, and addesign :D dish: filipino? i amm soo not exciting when it comes to dishes. desert: crepe! hobby: retail therapy, worrying about plates, wasting time on i dont know what exactly sport: ummm..nothing. resto: KARINDERYAS! nothing beats home cooked food with a lot of TLC and extra strands of hair and possibly talsik na laway. especially when enjoyed with people you love.
closet favorites: jeans: mango boyfriend jeans and skinny jeans from paolo footwear: black havaianas shades: brown one from people are people socks: my dad's gray socks highheels: my mom's gold charles and keith sneaks: black chucks, silver and blue sketchers, and mommy's orange adidas scarf: purple and pink scarf shirt: gray shirt! bag: camel tone oversized hobo and my school backpack! brand: MANGO, even if it will grow old hat soon. everything else comes from everywhere. loreal on makeup.
vanity faves: lipcolor: nivea cherry lip balm, estee lauder blazing berry blusher: stila 1, clinique honey blush, body shop tint foundation: combination of loreal n7 nude amber and g3 golden beige scent: vanilla, and johnson and johnsons cologne in slide
internet faves: blog: nica's and bryanboys... because they both update very often. they are the few blogs who doesnt disappoint me when im online too frequently. gossip site: PEREZ HILTON search engine: google
extremely uncommon faves: pencil: 2b and 4b... and my red mech pencil which ive been using for a year and so now! notebook: my school notebook and planner mall: g4 and greenhills salon: havent tried all the salons i want to go to.. but currently, lucy brittanico's best posercolor: yellow! very fuzz free alcoholic drink: c2 and what's it called... generoso. earl's mix ata. font: impact and century gothic time of the day: late afternoon and after midnight expression: macci mocking voice dating place: cafe breton and pares mami house and tokyo tokyo! jokes: poor people joke. damn, im going to hell!
......why did i write this down again. gawwdd.. this must be so boring to read.
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i havent updated for so long... im not dead yet okay!
i can no longer put this off, so i might as well tell the world about it. im afew days away from the legal age!
i've always thought id never get a debut. you know how we were when we were kids.. we just know its gonna happen, but the closer we are to it, the more realistic, the less sureal it becomes.
well, this is realistic.. but in my mind its still sureal!
omg! im having a debut!
a lot of people are invited. and arent we all excited? :) ughhh.... the part i hate the most are the grown-up part. i mean, i know that i have nothing special with these people, why do they have to be their on my special day? ugh. its just out of politeness, i know. but well, they supposedly dont really care naman e. i mean, duh! they're just there to be polite and dead bored inside.
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for someone who wishes to grow her hair, i cut my hair a liittle bit too often. uhuh... but well i found ate celi.. and well, i just love her so much. id trust her with my life as much as i trust her with my hair. both aspects are, like, almost the same in a level.
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nica, cheer up!!!!!! mwah mwah mwah!
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WARNING!: HP BOOK7 SPOILER COMING UP! (skip this entry if you cant risk it)
its 3:47am and i just finished harry potter book 7.
so snape died. big deal. its the story behind it that matters.
harry potter's such a hero. i dont care whatever whoever says... i like how he finished old moldy voldy.
as most of you might've guessed, i hate all the ginny and cho chang affair. pacute little girls they are. well, if you must know, cho chang's fat. (i can call ANYONE fat! im a living twig!) and ginny, well, she's just not pretty. not in the movie and not in my imagination she wont be.
o please stop the snogging. get real, jk! it doesnt fit your book! the way you describe it, its the most imperfect mixture of cheeziness and grossness. my mind kept taunting: "weh. weh. di nga? wehhh corny ka fuck you! weh di nga." ughhh, those, i swear, are the WORSE PARTS of the book!
anyhoos.. the book isnt bad. i enjoyed the revelation bits the best and hated the action, i enjoyed it. i personally think rowling did justice on voldy'd demise. and whatever parts i didnt enjoy, its my fault mainly because im so tamad at those parts that im skipping words and paragraphs just to finish it.
(boringest part: gringgots ; most exciting: snape!)
goodnight dear readers.
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on entirely different matters:
i dont mind if paolo becomes a hideous as long as his hugs stay the same. huggy huggy hug. snuggle snuggle. cuddle cuddle. he's so warm and soft and muscly and skinny and .... cuddles for the rainy season!
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...so. where were we?
notes on macci:
1. i do not fish for compliments. i get a whole lot of compliments because I FLAUNT EVER SO MERCILESSLY whatever it is that i can with the just right amount of discretion (i was about to say "great amount of discretion" but that's a little too much), and because i say thank you. whereas, when i criticize myself, the most i need is somewhere in the likes of teta's "okay lang yan, macci" to well, nothing at all. i've accepted the tons and tons of negative things about me and i do complain out loud every once in a while, but that is not fishing.
so if i tell you my hair's too big, or my face is too skinny, or that im too little... its okay to say nothing.
arggh... i repeat, i do not fish. and its offensive to call me fishing. i did graduate from highschool, didnt i?
:( sad face.
2. when i said last last july that i'll never ever touch alcohol again, i should've stuck to it. alcohol, seriously sucks for me. that's enough reason for me to abstain from liquor.
drinking's supposed to be fun.. but, i think it's a little too dangerous for me. :(
im never drinking again.
(p.s. i did not get drunk)
3. its quite unhealthy for me not to blog. the idea of blogging has been hovering over my head for quite a while, pushing me to do it, but i was just too busy to do anything. the past week, aside from the little education that i get, friends, and a cuddle-hungry paolo, ive been distracted only by a season of DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES! i know, it's so last year... BUT BREE ROCKS! and gabby too. YES, PEOPLE, I AM A TINIER, POORER, PLAINER VERSION OF GABRIEL SOLIS!
4. im thisclose to getting addicted to lippies! tubes and tubes of different shades of colors and all... i need more plum. pink looks so unnatural on me and orange is just unflattering.
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