hmmm i want to write about something right now. my fingers are almost idle. their moving on their own.. amp! could you believe it. my finger are hyperventilating. im like typing more than 140 words per minute now... i just have to edit later.


i havent really told my readers about chabbo. well, i have, but thats not enough. chabbo, originally known as "bubbles", is this white fluffy little dog under the breed of "bichon frise`". its french. and yes i know its bullshit to say this to you guys, and utterly mayabang mahangin and all, but she really does cost a whopping forty-five thousand pesos! its not much... actually, but thats a speedy and an extra 10k shopping money to you!!! and who the fuck would spend that much on a dog!! i know i wont! the urge to swap her for something more beneficial to me became so overwhelming the first few days, but i didnt do anything about it.

you guys want to know why? chabbo..she's sweet. AS IN PROMISE!!!! ive never been a dog lover, i hate kids, i hate all those cutsie fartsy stuff!! i hate hearts and florals and pinks and ribbons and i personally believe that barbie's such a slut and if there was one doll in the world who'd get fucked up first it would be any stupid snow white and seven dwarves doll then HER. BARBIE'S A BITCH!

back to my point, chabbo's just so sweet. generally, everyone under the age of five hates me. except guys kids. LITTLE GUY KIDS LIKE ME, ESPECIALLY WHEN I HAD LONG HAIR. SERIOUSLY! id have more chances of getting a toddler to fall under my spell than to have a guy my age or a little older (please) to get even just slightly attracted!

back to my point AGAIN.. chabbo's just so sweet. when i get home from school evryday, all tired and stressed and feeling so dead inside, chabbo greets me in the door, her tail wagging crazy like its gonna fall off and starts running around me. para ciang pusa! she'd purr and jump and act all cute! waaahhhhh!! how can you resist that!!!

the only problem is all this show of affection lasts for just around a minute and she's go to find something to chew on again. like a doll, or a pencil, or the leg of any table. sometimes, a cellphone too! here's a trivia about her, she likes chewing pink stuff. i dont know why but she just does! and she lovess looking at her reflection! what a girly girly girl she is!


the other problem is when we go anywhere with her, we suddenly look like her bodyguards! no amount of prettiness and classiness can compete with her. id end up looking like a backdrop! also, she thinks my rooms a toilet!!!!!!!! seriously. she doesnt go here to check up on me, or make lambing.. SHE GOES HERE TO PEE OR POO!!


but we love her all the same. she's the only cute thing in the world who loves me. aside from paolo ofcourse...... OH WHAT THE HECK! CHABBO REALLY IS THE ONLY CUTE THING IN THE WORLD WHO'D LOVE ME!! i know ill trade all the love in the world with the devil to get all the materialistic bullshit in the world, BUT NOT HER. she's a little piece of heaven.. with the cloud looking packaging and all.


could you resist that!! she's like cuteness personifiedd... umm doggified. amp! wahetver!!

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sweet nothings

my posts were so much more interesting back then. say half a year or so ago. my life is just as interesting/boring as before, ive no idea where all the touch of humor and good proper writing skills went.

maybe i stop writing so well because i cant write as much as i want anymore. and daming bawal. as everyone out there might as well as know, I AM NOT A VERY SECRETIVE PERSON. really. i am so extremely open and clear that there is no room left for mystery anymore. i am 10% eloquency/fluency (yeah right!), 10% passion, and 80% undilluted foul-mouthed insensitive tact.

yes, all the rumors about me being "matulis ang tabas ng dila" and all that are more than true. but it makes me!

now i cant anymore. i wish i kept on thinking that no one reads this blog like i did before.


also i can barely read!!! there's always something on my mind. whats worse it, whatevr on my mind is, its always usually so just unfortunately trivial. like a louise vuitton speedy for example. or boys. boys boys, of course boys! or fashion. fucking fashion. fashion just ate me alive.

and how can one write without reading? thats like the ultimate WRITER COMMANDMENT! read!!! unlike before, my vocabulary's already limited. i keep on saying the same words from the last entry and all. the only word ive found interesting enough to look up to the past days is 'ludicrous'... i dont even know what that means yet.


oh man, what's wrong with me! and im writing bullshit now. oh fuckity fuck.

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so, to be fair, all i really needed was an hour and a half total time of hanging out with my friends to keep me sane. not bad, dont you think?


...


currently obsessing over lv speedy. haaayyy.. i dont even need it. and besides there are a lot of prettier lv bags out there and the speedy, everyone knows they're not EXPENSIVE enough!! ampf! 35k, not expensive for a bag. can not believe i said that.

ive got one lousy lv at home. amp! i cant even wear it! its so borring!!! even with eight scarves hanging on it, its still boring. :(


...


happy birthday to dada! im not going to get you a gift though, deary, im broke! weren't you even wondering why im running all the communication errands for you. mwah. tnx for the free beer!

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open letter to _ _ _

to you.

i never ever thought id hate a guy so quickly. ever. you are the living proof that karma does exist. grabe i hate you. you have no idea that i do and that she does too, but we very very very much do hate you. and i dont ever want to talk to you or even communicate with you ever.

what you said about her, ang kapal ng mukha mo. she's a gazillion times prettier and more INTERESTING that you'll ever be. sobra.

grabe pare, the best thing i could advice you, without being mean or so is "grow up". yes, that's right. grow up! putangina, you are so hs! you're immaturity is out of this world. despicable. and its boring. your narcism is so fucking disgusting. soo fucking boring.

i can not believe i wasted around 30php of load on you. ughhhh! and most of all i can not believe i wasted one and a half hour attempting to have a decent conversation with you.


get real dickhead. do you really think id find all those intersting. ooohh,, and did you really believe that id develop a slight interest in you and those hs misadventures you have. na-uh. never. i'd feign greater interest on my toe or on a pencil than on you! buti id known and realized this earlier! she didnt,, aww poor bestf of mine. that hang up thing you did, sweetie... he deserves it!


from now on i resolve to never even attempt to be 'friends' with an intolerable cretin as you yourself are lest that you're idiocracy or despicableness rub on me.

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feminists

lola's are the best. they are the ultimate females. they are queens. they are weak and fragile but everyone's obliged to follow their every whim. cant w8 to turn 60. haha.

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wsh u wer hir

i do.

someone to be with.



bora isnt all that. baka badtiming lng aq. yes all the almost legendary stories they tell you is true. ive seen more celebrities than ive ever in my life, and i remain aloof... para bang im not impressed. they are exactly how they look like in tv, maybe just a little more human and imperfect. well, what the hell. ERIC CHUA IS JUST SOOO CUTE!!!

ive bonded with my sisters and from now on their my friends. yehey. i dont need to elaborate anything anymore or even give details. samin nalang un.


hmmmm lets see, what else.



...cant write anymore. pics pics pics.













i wish i could write again. i cant even read. i dont drown in books anymore. xe naman, there are just so many things going on in my mind. nababaliw na q.

more extremely vain pics here

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wsh u wer hir

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today is march 16

you guys deserve to get a good update. seriously. all you've been getting lately are fragments of what some could call "thoughts", but what i would identify as "stepping stones to insanity".

okay, so even if things arent reallly running smoothly, its fine. ive been with a lot of people in the past week. a whole lot, and i had so much fun. i wish i could just write it all down, enumerate every gimik ive gone to, how lucky i got with stuff, how independent i felt, how touched, how excited, how relaxed... everything.. but i cant right now. its got to do with 'the right time'.


ive learned pretty much.

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i know whats wrong with me.

i take everything not too be taken seriously so seriously.
and those i have to be serious about, i dont.


kill me.


please do.



...or change me at least.

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womanness

thanks for reminding me of my womanness...

remind me to pray too.

you do that too, okay.


...


taro taro!!! craving like crazy...

bo's coffee cookies arent bad at all. :D


...


womanness.. womanness.. womanness...


ive already forgotten of all that feminism bullshit i used to pull ever so often. i should be more like that, now. :D tnx. i love you.

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i want i want i want

yes, i am a spoiled brat. people made me want. some made me want stuff and some gave it to me. when i dont get things my way i whine and get so mad. if i want anything or anyone, i fall so in love with it (or the idea of it) that i sulk over it for days.

maybe im just passionate.

sweetie, stop spoiling me!

...

im happy today really. ive completely maximized my week. my lolo and lola are kinda out, its the only opportunity ive got to be with people. other people. a lot of them. grabe, its fun.

this is me.

sobra. this used to run my life.


...

retail therapy is always best.

commute isnt that bad.

must be nice to people.. employees. maybe being demanding isnt so bad, just be nice.

must stop spending too much!

...


ive found MY SALON! yipeee!!!

well, atleast i found one hairstylist id trust with my life. im not too sure abt it, though. pro.. basta. haay! >:D<


...



you can never survive summer without money.


...

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now

im exhausted and confused and deceived and happy and sad and.....................everything. im everything.

tired.

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have to sleep early.
dont wanna write now.

i have other places to write in. :*

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argggghhhh... i dont have any new clothes. its not that i really neeed any.. i mean i've got more than enough, pero...... aaahhhhhh.

...wala lng.

..im feeling the best today the whole week. sigh. wala lng. :D

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with love

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud...

...It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak


---
that's the only good part!!!
MWAH MWAH MWAH

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songs

i figured it out.

...


I LOVE THESE SONGS!!!

lala means i love you - swing out sisters
orange colored sky - natalie cole
walk on by - dionne warwick
this thing called love - queen
you and i both - jason mraz
one night - the corrs
head over feet - alanis morisette
HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE - THE BEE GEES!!
drive - incubus
girlfriend - nsync
cherry lips - garbage
always - gary valenciano and jinky
the hurt - kalapana
again - lenny kravitz
sunday morning - lilly allen
my girl - the temptations
buttercup - the temptation
cry me a river - julie london
this love - maroon 5
my name is luca - susan vega
sugar sugar honey - archies
you are the sunshine of my life - stevie wonder
love fool - the cardigans

fast car - ??
almost anything updharmadown


super dami p iba.. just wanted to jot it down out of sheer boredom. basta. ahahhaha.


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im feeling a lot better now. :D

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when i read his messages or i read my messages for him. it makes me cry. it makes me cry more if he's joking. its the same old bowling boll tossed on my heart feeling. like a second of breathlessness followed by a nanosecond of dying.

but im happy, ok? im bored, xe im like in the adjusting day. but im happy. and you must try to be happy too. :*

i love you sweetheart.

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happily ever after prince

what does it mean if you're bagay with someone. it may mean that when you're placed beside him, you suddenly look stunning... and so does he! it may mean that you're character compliment the other one's. it may also mean that you're alike in many ways. it may also mean that you're too different that itd be cute to put you two together. also, it may mean that even in the most hideous pictures, EVERYONE AROUND SEES THE SPARKS!

i love you happily ever after prince. :*

i do. :* mwah.

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9:53am

eyes puffy as hell,
i feel so numb but my heart's beating its way off my chest,
my limbs feel like they're going to fall off any minute now,
any thoughts are still as stubborn as they were ever,
body clock is bitching on me again... through insomnia. what's new.
my fingers take effort to bend,
im an emotional mess.
im a mess.
mess mess mess mess mess mess mess



im scared that someone's going to knock on my door. they'll see me like this. i dont want to know if im wrong. i dont want the fact that i hurt people rubbed on my face. i dont want anything.

i dont know what im doing. i dont know what my objectives are. i know im hurting. i know im almost burning in hell. i know that i dont know whether im right or wrong. i dont know.


im sorry my happily ever after prince. i know that this hurts.

but i want the time right now please.

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i wish i were drunk.. it makes life easier. i could act stupid and no one can blame me.

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i feel drunk

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im going crazy crazy crazy crazy. DO NOT TAKE CAFFEINE IF YOURE MENTALLY UNSTABLE LIKE MYSELF!

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my life kinda sucks. it does.


stuff to do for today: watch zoolander with jula and jas
clean my nails
change the sheets
sort out bag
stop blogging

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I CANT WRITE ANYMORE. EVEN IF I TRIED. I DONT WANT TO GIVE UP BUT MAY BE I HAVE TO. I DIDNT EVEN CHOOSE THIS AS MY CAREER PATH. MAYBE IF I DID, THE SPARK WOULD STILL BE PRESENT, LEVITATING AROUND MY HEAD. INSPIRATION. MAYBE. I WRITE BECAUSE I FEEL OBIGATED TO THIS BLOG AND TO THE PEOPLE WHO READ THIS. I BLOG BECAUSE I'VE ALWAYS BLOGGED.

MY POSTS ARE SO DILLUTED, EVER SO QUALITY-CONTROLLED. THEY'RE NOT WORTH A DIME ANYMORE.


MAYBE, AS USUAL, BECAUSE IM A MADMAN WHO'S BEEN THINKING EITHER TOO MUCH OR TOO LITTLE, THIS IS ALL IN MY HEAD.



ASDGLJGKJJKJFNBJKFSIYFUSATSUIFVSJFBUSFTFSTFSOID.

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