The party was crappy as mil call it. well, it didn't suck THAT much.. it's jus not as exciting as we thought and wanted it too be. i want to post pictures, but our other pc is in the shop and this one doesn't have bluetooth downloaded in it.

anyway, i was dressed up as a witch. a pretty one :P. i originally planned to go as a queen or princess, but a witch's hat turned out to look better with my get-up than my tiara. awwww. but i love the tiara!!

i'll wear it next time when i go to the mall. kinda outgoing, huh? well, i am papansin and i really do want to wear it.


Lalalala...

"How Deep Is Your Love"


And when you rise in the morning sun
I feel you touch my hand in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again
And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love then you softly leave
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love

How deep is your love
How deep is your love
I really need to learn
Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

I believe in you
You know you're the door to my barest soul
You're the light in my deepest darkest night
You're my saviour when I fall
And you may not think that I care for you
When you know down inside that I really do
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love


You're the light
You're my light
And you may not think that I care for you
When you know down inside that I really do
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love

mwah! :X



Party Pics (kinda l8, i know)



getting my hair professionaly done (by ate neng and tina)


pepz the murderer and my angel, dada..


the beautiful emcee,, camille prassad.


myself the enthralling witch and my chines pirate


that's me too and forget it,just some guy.
bwahhahahah :D
muah

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party updates

i am currently in mil's place and she's taking a bath right now.

the party starts later this eve. good thing it oushed through, we thought it wouldn't happen, but well it WILL. cynthia, zhai, mel and mil will play... and knowing how very musically inclined they all are, this oughta be good.

i never thought organizing party vould be this stressful. especially if held i a resto and not just a house. well, it's grand and expensive.. but it's gonna be worth it.

for those who wish to attend the party, just txt me or something.. it's sun 09225542512. it's not safe to give out information online, but i'd love it if you could come. its a costume party by the way. lolz.

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parteiii

next party.. please wish me luck! :P

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verity of a senior's existence

stress.

i eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner. i consume it before going to bed too. there's just so much to do and not much time and ENERGY to do it. i am supposed to be writing my formal theme right now, but i am too bored to do that. so maybe the field trip is exciting (helluva!), but i still dont see how complaining about it will make me feel better.

i've just done my cle work, and its such a waste of time. i haven't learned anything at all. that's probably why im not very religous though i try, my teacher's just got this way of un-converting me. haha!

and the play isn't going nowhere. we get so stressed by it, but we're not producing anything in the first place. even the intrams is going to the dogs (ugh! how cliche`!).


pucha! my friends are worried. im no longer the bubbly, happy-go-lucky macci they used to know. im becomin much more cynical, and my mature and silent nature is shining through big time!

i will no longer blame barbe (even if i know in the conscious and subconscious parts of my mind that it is acceptable and is fitting to do so) for all the misfits and gloom i exibit. it's no one elses fault but my brain's. psychologicaly speaking, i am getting stressed because i actually want to be stressed. i want to always do something, but in the long run, i dont know how to manage everything naman.

basta!! aaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!



i just want to break down. if only i knew how to cry and pour it all out. as in pouurr it alll out. :(
i might need professional help. (wow! that proves that im already mad mad mad!)

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i love her so much.

i dont care if your happy or not. i just dont want you to be sad.

i dont want you there anymore. they're not treating you fairly. they never treat ANYONE fairly! i know i did better in treating you than they did. and i know i didnt do too much.

we know each other so well. more than most pf my close friends and you close friends does. even if i might not give you the attention and love you need, i care. i fucking care. and i hate what's happening!

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there are so many things in this fucking world that i dont know. sometimes, i just want to stop thinking. everybody is a deep thinker. we all dont know what we're doing and why we're here in the first place. but we keep on living and living, because dying, unfortunately is such a waste of time.

what comes after that? heaven? hell? purgatory? earth? or another life? no one really knows. no one knows too if there really is something after that.

it's just so stupid. everything is. im becoming some king of melodramatic cynic. and that's an oxymoron, but its real and it applies to no one else but myself.


there are so much shallower and more interesting things to write.


how could you love so deeply and hate so fiercly all at the same time. the deeper your love grows, the more you loath and despise. the more you learn, the more you want to unlearn. and when you have it, you barely want it anymore. it's so hard to keep. four years, five? some more than three years. it all expires in half a decade. it fades.

i love you. all of you. but i dont know whats happening. losing grip (isnt that a song?).

come back. please.

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its been a month i guess. and it's my other diary's anniv last friday, i think. o well.

i have reached conclusion that sometimes you can actually think more clearly if you dont write your thoughts down. see, if you do, what most likely happens is you'll think too much which isnt healthy at all.





silly..


me w/ lalz and aina

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