i have to get over being judgemental as soon as possible. i really have to already. i've had two major wake-up calls today from two very different situations, all which impacted greatly on how i view things.

must i elaborate pa? should i even give details??


.to you. im sorry. i swear. my bad. completely. you deserve none of it... you really really really dont. we love you so very much and now na nahurt ka nmn, lalo ka nmn love. :( . wla na.. di na tayo magiging deep friends... and well, i deserve it. haahha. im so good at fucking things up with my cruelty, aint i? i hate me too i know. i've no idea how to make it up. and i cannot believe im still making a big deal out of this! especially now pa when the actual best thing to do about it is burry it along with the other faulty first impressions. i wish she didnt lie either, but i understand her more than completely. i can even add up reasons why she didnt say so when she should have! hellooww??
....................please please let me make it up.

.to you. i was mean, but i cant help it. you were just so annoying. people really act like this when they know less you know. you dont have to understand and there's nothing we can really do about this. im sorry, though. im insensitive and right now im not proud of it. you're in more trouble than i expected you to be in. its nothing petty, something that i should've understood and personally considered long long before pa. people are stupid. between us, i guess i am the lesser person.





im sorry. :( ayoko na. pagod na ko magpademonyo. how come the evil things are always the easiest things to do. bat dapat ganun pa? there are so many good things i should be doing but im not. demonita talaga ko and right now, even if it sounds cute, i should stop.


.to the other you. you're annoying too. i swear id be nicer.

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lately, ive been spending too much. screw school! screw christmas!

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this is what i call high fashion

pretty pretty pretty!!!!!!!!
now, when am i gonna wear this?

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kim stolz

ok. so most of you people dont know who kim stolz is.. and can i blame you? BUT ANYWAY, she's the lesbian contestant of america's next top model cycle 5. since she's queer, she'll be pretty hard to miss.



this is the true her



this is the beautified her!



she's got hot legs, a pretty much to-die-for body, good posing skills, and a talented artistic director!


so this just proves that everybody has chances. therefore, i should stop verbally torturing ugly people just because they are ugly (as i am very fond of.)

there's nothing good make-up, good-clothes, good-photography, and good-digital edidting cant fix.

hooray for the ugly people out there!

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i havent told my "former" barkada yet, but these people are the best.



better than prom project


partial pics of the guys


its rather difficult to put in words how much i love them, you know how words trash it. saying too much about something you extremely hate or extremely love turns insignificant whatever your point is.

im not saying they have replaced sobs, because NOTHING, NOTHING NOTHING could ever replace any single member of sobs. what so pa sa group itself. :( i miss them. its sad because we dont see each other's hair grow longer... sounds lame and trivial, but they'd know what i mean, i think.


i love my girls the most. even if they cut a lot. by "cut" i do not refer to any form of suicidal tendencies, mind you, i mean being irrationally careless academically. they make school worth going to. :D they make me feel comfortable. they are now my safety blanket, and knowing they're around, me commiting faux pas or not, ill be just fine.


and we're all different! not exteremely, but different nonetheless. and we complement each other in the cutest way.. waaahhh!! fellow mean girls, please attend classes already!

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SHOOOT ME!

I DARE WRITE THIS!

i have always seen fine arts as somewhat trivial. like, "what the hell? anyone can fucking pass that" kind of trivial. the doubt of pursuing the course still lingers somewhere in my mind and it bothers me. it's like, i really am choosing architecture over advertising, and im so going to miss everything in architecture.

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some of the many wisdoms you can gain from reading me!

ive been reading past entries, and these excerpt makes me wonder how i've never known im that smart.



."graduation isn't as emotional as i expected. maybe, like everything else including love, sex, marriage, getting your period and prom night, it's just over-rated."

."boredom is not very good for me. sitting steady is unhealthy."

."m troubled. fucking troubled. and ive been hiding it for too long. i dont want to
go wearing the emotions, fears, worries, and the problems on my sleeves. i just want to keep it inside until it self-terminate."

."frugal is such a disgusting word. it means luxury-less, fashion-less, gimmik-less and fashion-less. however, it is a consequence one like myself would soon succumb to because i have been spending way off my budget "

."stupid stupid stupid best friend of mine. really, sometimes he should just rot in hell. and actually stay their! not catch the train back to the world of the living to bring back hell to me. as in really."

."they say its stooping so low. i say its the midpoint of getting ready to start anew and brutally leaving everything behind, with no sentimental baggage"

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vintage

let me make this clear:

i dont like butterflies, and hearts, florals are a bit tolerable, but id rather not like it. i dont like crosses and.. i dont like butterflies and hearts!

i like big rings, i like big earrings, i also like PRETTY keychains.

i love white.


i have always always always loved vintage!


click here
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MY SELFISH AND SUPERFICIAL CHRISTMAS LIST

wish list

not for other people to give me!:

1. dark plum paten flat peeop toes (which ill be having tomorrow!)
2. black long sleeved top i saw with pao from pink soda
3. black skinny jeans
4. new school shoes
5. patent black quilted bag
6. bigger knitted bag costing 1250 from galle's 50th ave.
7. pretty oversized school bag
8. gray sweater
9. huge vintage earings
10. third charms by megan mccafferty
11. neutrogena foundation. medium beige
12. a new shade of blusher
13. a fucking flat tipped paint brush
14. mustard yellow tee



at para dun sa mga balak akong tipiring.. which i have to say is acceptable. im quite easy to please

1. i like PRETTY socks
2. i like pretty undies
3. i like pretty notebooks (im a sucker for notebooks!)
4. pretty boxes
5. pretty flipflops (my feet are aproximately 5.5 inches!)
6. sweeetss!!
7. a sketchpad


other wise... for those whom i matter ever so dearly, FIGURE IT OUT!
i dont know what i want either
:)

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