the long long post of bottled up rants
so about this blog and the multiply thing. dare i explain?
im no long cross posting since that contributes boring problem to m already lackluster life, so this is howd it go:
blog entries - heartfelt nonsense that i do not need the world to see. most likely, these entries will bore everyone, but it is written for the strong-willed people. for actual bloggers and nerds such as myself. for people who've nothing to do at home anyway.
multiply entries - wala. amp. magyayabang lang ako dito. about myself, my guys, my friends, my engrande life kuno. the parties, ths shopping, the trips, yadayadayada totally superficial and possibly overrated life. ugh. powtah. multiply entries are censored entries, i mean, people will read it! fackers! its like presenting an article to people, i have to make it intersting shit!
so can i manage two blogs at a time. with the rate im writing, I CAN MANAGE TEN AND KEEP EVERYTHING UPDATED DAILY. i mean, id be alone all summer, wont i. what else can i do? this is my fucking contribution to the society, as useless as it may be. and i laabb itt!!
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i am sooo skinny. i can pass as your average 8 year old kid. but wait a minute, they're growing them fat now.. im skinnier.
but atleast, mya appetite's back. i was thinking about writing everything i stuff myself with everyday in my blog but decided against it, because just like most things in the planet, i can not commit!
gawwshh. what is it with me and commitments? well, im just average, im guessing.
back to the weight problem. of course im not anorexic. i may say that and try to fool people with it as i always do, but gaawd they'd believe me! yesterday, i was able to finish a whole one-piece chicken meal from mcdo, and i almost can not blieve tht i just did. and to think, ive had 2 minor breakfasts before that.
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being single turned my mouth foul. ive been injecting words such as "fuck" "pota" and the likes in every emotionally overwhelming sentence i utter and write. atleast i say these words with "poise" (if that is possible). i mean, its KINDA ok to sound foul, but gaawwwdd, id hate to sound like a kanto girl.
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ive been making pacute less now that im single. the shame of it.
summer's around the corner. i just have to go to one class on tuesday, and im a college junior. incoming college junior if your so oc and want to put it that way.
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im scared. really scared. what if, what ifs. do i really deliver myself in that manner? its flattering (yeah whatever), but its a tad sadder. i dont even know what to do now. i mean, how do you effing fix something like that. is it even possible. i mean, in the end, id end up acting like i always do.
and besides its not that bad. ....?
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nica told me something essential last night. i should've known it long before. as iiin looong before. like about, lets say, half a decade ago.
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my bestfriend's gone to the united states of america. its not even summer yet. i wasnt able to spend a single day of summerness with her. waaah sniff sniff. she's my summer girl, you know that. im totally dependent on her every summer, even when i already had a boyfriend.
and that too, no more boyfriends for me. i mean, the legendary paolo is till around, he'll always be, but i cant expect that he'd hang out with me as much as couples do. i mean, whats the sense of the "break off cool thingy" if we hang on as much as before right.
still, pauline is sooo faar away. waaaaahhhhhhhh!!! ggggrrrrrrr!!!
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i can already tie my hair in a pony. or poneee, as ludai puts it. i really really really want a haircut already, but im deciding against it because --(by this time, 80% of the readers have already bored themselves with the previous boring nagging, i dont think there'd be a lot left to read this "pagbubuhat ng bangko" tendency of mine) -- well, im deciding against it because the guys laaab it!
maybe its because of the availability, which is why they're popping out right and left. or maybe its because of the makeup. who knows. but definitely the hair's got something to do with it. the hair's ALWAYS GOT SOMETHING TO DO WITH EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE!
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