f. insomnia
i havent been getting good sleep recently. the most ive got in the past week is a straight five-hour of sleep. and to think, walang pasok for four days. wtf is wrong with me?
now im so tired and stressed and moody. and my skin is getting bad. :( ughhh.
ive tried everything... counting my heartbeat, milk, sleeping aids. ive actually been scouting around mercury drugstores for Tylenol PM since Sleepasil (an herbal sleeping aid) does not do anything for me. turns out, its only available abroad, and the philippines, being a lowly third world, does not have the economic rights for variations in terms of cosmetics and medicine. (wtf am i saying again?) i close my eyes for 30 mins, and im still as awake as 30 mins before.
i really really really do need to see a doctor. but my mom's too busy with lots of stuff to take me to a doctor.
i neeeeedd sleep. but i dont really know how to get it. :( siiiggghhhhh.. im so tired of this. sino ba kasi nagpauso ng insmonia na yan e, and the thing is some fucking people think its cute. that it's cool. argggh... and they pretend that they're insomniac too. i just wanna strangle them! some people are struggling to get a good night's sleep, tossing and turning, taking useless tablets, drinking glass after glass of milk, switching rooms, fighting with their boyfriends so that they can have a nice sleep, (heck i even forced myself to watch tv!) and some of you keep yourself awake to be able to say that you're one!
well, it actually makes me better that there are some people out there who are genuinely like myself, so i guess i really shouldn't complain. its just depressing that i dont have anyone to talk to because all of you are fucking asleep!!!
i just wanna sleep now! how could it be that im tired as hell, but when i hit my bed, i shut my eyes and naddah. i just really really really reallyyy wannna sleep... :'( *cry cry*
posted by the irresistably conceited Jenni |
