me, me, me... the stupidly selfish post
i've figured why im so "addicted" to fashion. its because i have nothing else to look forward to. because it gives me that extatic thrill i dont find anywhere else.
i shouldnt be, though, because i do not go out as much as my clothes require me too. i mean, helllooo.. i have to show them off for a while. but when i do go out, i get semi tamad, and end up wearing something not too exciting.
well, that not too exciting part, thats what paolo loves. really. that's what he finds charming.
so here goes my addiction to makeup. makeup is the ultimate accessory, its washable, its creative, its fun, its discreet, AND I CAN WEAR IT ALMOST ANYWHERE. its super worth being broke for me.
therefore, i am vain. :|
i think i may have to form a new hobby of some sort. take drawing for example. well, see, drawing's not really my "passion". designing is. seriously. that's the ultimate macci concept of everything, i want everything to be aesthetically pleasing. everything around me. im ever so concious, that even my words are in a way well versed inside my head, so that they flow from my mouth (or fingers, because, hello.. im typing) like something artistic.
ewan. basta. that's the artist in me.
what the fuck am i saying!?!?!? i really do need a new hobby.
i think ill take that photoshop thing/hobby of mine seriously. but, ughhh. so kakatamad. i really take sembreak as my relaxing period. all i ever do is hang out with pao, waste my money on stupid stuff i find in malls, go online, stay in bed and stretch, read magazines, the newspaper and shit. i get so giddy without anything to read. i cant just sit down and "relax". that makes me feel so stupid.
but i barely barely buy books anymore, because i kind of think my vanity vice is much more worth the money. but see, i buy books too because according to the bible (proverbs. uh-huh. i read that too. ooh, maybe i should finish it this time, instead of treating it like a fashion magazine of some sort.), we should never scrimp on wisdom. okaaayy, so that isnt exactly how the proverbs-people put it, but its something like that.
my gooodd, im so bored. we're talking bible here. save me please!
posted by the irresistably conceited Jenni |
