its a long process, being nice and prim and proper... and im not giving up. PERO EWAN. MY INSIDES ARE CHURNING, AND BOILING. and this is the only outlet. and id be saying "fuck" an awful lot more.. even if i dont really want to.
i wasnt cut out to be nice!!! my insides cant take it. nababd3p lang ako... and naweiweirduhan sa sarili ko. bat ko kasi sinanay na i can just act and talk tactlessly e.. yan tuloy. shutting the hell up is a chore. doing chores are punishment. being a peacemaker is a job.
aaahhh!! i dont want to be plastic. especially not to myself. but safmosngu ib bfjnsiyuihwjk idy ysdf.
p.s. please just pardon the sudden outbursts. im currenly just going insane.
posted by the irresistably conceited Jenni |
