bad bad insomnia
ive always had insomnia since i was, say, 6. its all my dad's fault since he let me stay up late til 10pm. normal 6 year olds go to sleep at 7pm!
it's 1:38. ive been in bed since 11. but to no avail im as awake as.. umm..uh.. 4pm. yes. my head does hurt a little, but im awake.
i used to think this isnt sooo bad, really. i mean if my system's going to get all messed up because of cfad, might as well as enjoy the priveleges of my messed-upness. times of the day like this, i have everyth8ng to myself!
but its not fun anymore. at all. it has been a norm for me to cry nalang kase i cant sleep, even if i stay still in bed 15 mins at a time.. and when i say STILL, I MEAN STILL. im crying right now, kase naiinggit aq s mga tao who has no problem sleeping. especially my sisters in the next room. sara lng nila mata nila and maglalaway ng konte, then solved! ok na cla! sound asleep.
you know what else i hate? people who pretend that they have insomnia. POSERS!! ampf!! whats worse is that i tend to expect them to be awake and im all like "finally! someone to keep me company in the wee hours of the am!".. tas when you call them or look for them online, nada.. no one! im left all alone, blogging some shit, even if i know it wont help naman.
tomorrow (ermm, later), ill try to go to st.lukes. i'd do shopping next week nalang. i just want to sleep. please please please please...
posted by the irresistably conceited Jenni |
