some people just have it easy
you'll never be be strong unless you've had bad things happen to you. ive had my own share of bad experiences, pero they're not bad enough for me to learn the essentials of life. like to be truly hard-working. to multi-task. in other words, being the spoiled brat that i really am (even if i keep on thinking im not) who had it easy my entire life, i'm weak.
im not wishing for bad things. grabe ayoko ng bad things. im consistently praying for God to not let bad things happen to me. wala lng. i feel blessed, i really do, but i feel stupid. like how am i going to manage in this world... the real world?
aba'y ewan. what the fuck am i saying again. arghh!! i should just keep this insane nonsenses in my mind and think of it on my own.
...
here's something else to think about. why oh why oh why am i not down to earth?
everybody else is. im such a bitch. i think im better than most people. amp! anu naman ba ang maipagmamalaki ko? i have nothing. nadah. zero!! haaay wala lang.
i think that im not a loser. un un e! well, i am. im still a nobody. why do i keep on thinking that everybody else is. especially people from my past. sobra. hindi marunong tumingin sa pinanggalingan. people like me deserve no one. haaaayyy.
im so sorry everyone to bore you with my much unamusing ramblings.
why do i have to always think that im not a good person. i could be, diba? im not thaat bad, really. its just that........oh macci just shut up!
posted by the irresistably conceited Jenni |
