i have manners but i hate you. really.
i dont mind blogging in tagalog. i really dont. its just that i express myself better when i speak in english. when i was really young and stupid (and still am!), i'd always speak in english. i would, really! but it never made sense.. i dont really know how my speaking --or more fittingly, my mumbling-- went like.. probably: "i dont ever become to want that. you know. i know." ... something like that. to make it simple, really senseless.
my mom even catch me speaking in english ALONE! its weird and no one likes it! sometimes, i even make up my own conversations ALONE. tangina im crazy!!!
in the end, thankfully because i like reading books, i did learn to speak good english. i can even say im quite fluent. i like public speaking, i really do. im unbecomingly and unhesitatingly proud to say THAT I HAVE BEEN THE VICE PRESIDENT OF MY HIGHSCHOOL DEBATE TEAM... i actually even became the president for, like, a meeting or two, but the genuine one reclaimed her post. not that it matters actually, since the forensics doesnt really do anything of importance. damn, im honest.
in the philippines, because people are really impressionable and moronic, being able to speak good english just shocks them. to some extent, in a funny way. since i was in grade six, ive been 'shocking' people with my discussions and my debate. usually, it doesnt make much sense, but since my english could be called flawless (or so they seem), I WOULD WIN THE AUDIENCE's AMAZEMENT!
pretty stupid, isnt it?
but some people are waayy stupider. seriously, you've got to see salesladies in malls, ignore their current customers (who are most likely to buy something) when you start speaking. ahahahhahaha.
paolo thinks its annoying. he's english is much much alarming than mine, because he speaks really slang. kaso naman, he's just, as always, so humble! he could use it to his advantage but he never does. now his case is funnier. since he's got no trace of kaartehan in the way he present himself, he leaves people dumbfounded. hardeharharhar! i love him.
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i have manners but i hate you.
this can be my personal mantra if i want. it just says that you can be really mean... as long as you have manners. ive already bought kate spade's "manners" to help me hide my cruelty... and i guess its working quite well.
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so, its already one am. and im not asleep. ang kapal ng mukha ko. madaling araw, im not asleep, BUT IM NOT DOING MY PLATE! harharharhar. i still hate me. but i like writing. i just want to pour it all out right now. and since the entry is long, boring and insiginificant enough, i bet the readers have already dozed off or skipped to the next entry. and so i can write what i feel.
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posted by the irresistably conceited Jenni |
