Update 06.26
i need that^. really. there are so many things i need need need to buy. i need to buy a few pair of pants (slacks for school, and denim for moi!) i need to buy as much dangling earrings because i need to spruce my uniform up. you know that i dont experience fashion items shortage that much, but u do know that i dont think dangling earings enhance anything in relation to my X-factor (whatever that is). i mean, it really is the prettiest uniform in all the university, our uniform, but it needs sprucing up. i need huge bags with a diverse dimension inside it. imagine a shoulder bag which could fit a 15" by 19" illustration board inside. plus a few boxes containing all the unreasonably pricey tech pens, mech pencils, and brushes made out of unicorn hair. you know what i mean.
there's a big difference between the people i hang out with currently from the people i used to be with. i mean i can't exactly call them friends YET, simultaneous luncheons doesn't assure that.
my former barkada makes me feel pretty. they make me feel prim, refined, and superior. we dine in places and shop for clothes we can barely afford. we aim for perfection. we aim for the best and most superficially top-notch things. by the end of the day, my pocket's empty but i feel reallly pretty and classy and sophisticated and expensive and EVERYTHING.
but these people im with now, they make me feel like i dont need to be pretty. they dont care if half of what im wearing are imitation. we eat at karinderyas. AND I SAVE A LOT! we argue who haggles the best. we aim for the best bargains, price and quality alike. they dont know the people i know, though. by the end of the day, my pocket's JUST FINE i feel really kaboy, astig, witty and EVERYTHING!
the conversation. well, i can't say it's the same really. there are so many things i can't talk to them about that im used to discussing with sobs. except for louise, of course, who seems to be in the same 'circle' as i am. but i dont mind not being able to talk about the ever so famous hotties of ateneo, lasalle, and hollywood. i'm much happier without it!! i'm barely interested with these guys. i dont have to KNOW them,i can just stare at them. that's more than enough for me!
im more than prepared for this. there's no culture shock. i expected things to be a lot wilder in college really, but having friends that are not at all daring is fine fine fine with me.
you know what scares me. sobs, well i love them and all. i should've known ages ago that i can live without them.
almost everything's temporary. if not everything, that is. before i even entered college, i knew that attachment to anything college-related is foolish.
posted by the irresistably conceited Jenni |
