there are so many issues i have looked over. one day, i have to face them. its cowardice not to do so today when i actually can. i guess, i dont have the heart. and i like the way things are.
but there are other things to think about.
for one, each day, im becoming weak. i can feel the power drip from me slowly. its no fucking drama. i do feel it. im not myself at all.
i need to reclaim myself or something. i think there's something brave i have to do. i dont know what it exactly is actually, just a vague picture of it. and as usual, even if i am not using 'the code', no one still understands.
posted by the irresistably conceited Jenni |
